i am looking for something, something to change my life completely.
is it love? is it enlightenment? i don't know. for some reason i'm always thinking of myself in the future, the great person i will be, the great things i will do, the purification of my body, mind and soul that i will perform ... i'm like those dogs that carry the slates, they chase after the mascot
rabbit that's hanged in front of them which is ment to keep them going, but they can never be reached.
is it the same for me? am i never going to become the man i want, the man i dream to become?
some ppl live in the past, i tend to live in the future, i can't get myself to feel the present,
it's too unreal to me, it's like a dream, i feel i'm gonna wake up any moment now and everything will be gone. only very few moments of clarity i get, when i see things for what they are, when i feel the world around me ... but they tend to be more and more rare ... is this a common fate the modern man suffers or is it just me?
