I just realized that i get more pleasure from having the
possibility of something good happening than from it actually happening.
The perpetual waiting, i conditioned myself to take pleasure in the
waiting more than in the result. It's because I'm afraid
to fail. If i don't make a move, i can't fail, thus the waiting becomes
my only source of pleasure. Advise to self - more confidence, less care about what
others think. Don't be afraid to fail.
