lost

i'm lost ... at times i feel i live in an artificial environment ... there is something in me that screams out insanely yet not getting through. the spirit of the warrior, the spirit of the wise, of the enlightened, they are locked inside everyone of us, so close you can attain them, yet so out of reach ... i don't understand what is happening, how to interpret all this, what to do and what to choose ... i'm like a lost child in a crowd ... it's overwhelming, disorienting, strange, familiar, inspiring ... they say there are many paths, but only one destination. what if don't choose at all, is that what i am doing? how can i chose if i can't make sense of all these feelings ... have i lost my memory, my mind, my soul? this is madness ...